“my condolences to anyone who’s ever lost me
and to anyone who got lost in me
or to anyone who ever felt they took a loss with me.
my apologies.
for the misunderstanding or the lack thereof.
i’m sorry you missed the God in me.
and i’m sorry you missed the light.
i’m sorry you forgot the way i arose like the moon, night after night.
with the burden to forgive
eager to feed you everything.
see.. i’m a holy woman.
i know what it’s like to give life to a being
without ever needing to press skin against one another.
i’ve practiced how to hold my tongue long enough, i’m afraid i forgot to say goodbye.
i’m afraid you’re under the impression that i was made to please you.
i was under the impression, you understood me better.
the truth is, i’m a super woman.
and somedays i’m an angry woman.
and somedays i’m a crazy woman.
for still waiting..
for still loving harder even if i’m aching. for still trusting that I’m still worth the most.
for still searching
for someone to understand me better.”
You say you want it…you say you want someone to love you so deep, you want them to have patience with you, give you space & time. you say you want someone to grow old with. Who you can communicate with? Be spiritual with. Are you everything that you want in that other person you’re searching for? Are you everything you want in the person you’ve been waiting for? Are you doing all those little things you want the other person to do? Or are they just wants & desires. You say you want it…But it always starts with you.
